Mama, Mama, Mama… we need to have a talk. And since the subject of feeding our babies is so touchy for most of us, maybe you should make a cup of chamomile tea, grab a seat, and take a few deep breaths. Continue reading
Hi everyone! Baby Ant is now 3 months old! He turned 3 months yesterday, on Christmas 🙂
This Christmas was so special for our little family. We just moved into our new home in Norfolk, Virginia and my mom and brother drove down here from Maine with their dog Fergie. The six of us spent the day eating, chatting, walking on the beach and watching Bob’s Burgers and Wayne’s World- not your typical Christmas, but it was one to remember. My little brother, the thoughtful dude he is, brought gifts for Anthony Sr. and I. If my little sister and her family came, it would have been the most perfect Christmas ever. Continue reading
Its crazy to think that I have known my sweet Ant for only two months and I already love him more than I ever thought possible. I love every thing about him. I love his big grin. I love the lint between his chubby toes. I love his Buddha belly. I love his big cheeks and his wide eyes. He’s perfect. Don’t you think?
If you have been following my baby updates, you know that Ant was sick for a while. I am happy to share that he is doing MUCH better. While he was re-admitted to Tulane hospital he had an ultrasound of his liver, kidneys and gallbladder as well as a liver biopsy. These procedures were to figure out why his bilirubin was still so high. Neither showed us a cause for it. Ant was discharged after 5 days in the hospital. Continue reading
Breastfeeding is one of the most beautiful natural occurrences in the world. It is among the many amazing things that the female body can do. When I think about the fact that I MADE a human and am now feeding him with my own body, I am in awe. The first time I nursed my son, I cried. I had to wait almost a week to have the joy of holding him for the first time, and waited over a week to have the experience of feeding him (see Baby Update | Home From The NICU). So my tears were mostly tears of joy for finally doing what every mother normally does in the first hour of her child’s life. They were also tears of relief, because it was not easy to get Ant to latch. It was really, really hard. From that day we have had ups and downs- from having to switch to a special formula, to returning to breast feeding, to growth spurts, and blocked ducts. Fortunately, I have many knowledgeable friends and access to some really great lactation consultants. Because I know how difficult breastfeeding truly can be, I would like to share what I’ve learned with you. I hope if you are having hard times that this will help. Don’t give up, Mama!
Today baby Ant had his liver biopsy. The cat scan that they used to insert the needle didn’t show any irregularities, but we won’t have the results of the biopsy until probably Wednesday. Unfortunately, they were unable to draw labs during the procedure because they had difficulty getting the IV in. The whole point of drawing labs during the procedure was that he would be asleep and the IV would make it easier to get blood out. Now we have to wait until Monday to get most of blood work done and the genetics tests won’t be drawn until the 19th of November. This is REALLY frustrating and its looking more and more like we need to get to Boston and have Ant treated by the most experienced liver doctors.
Right now Ant is in the PICU for recovery. Because of his history with lung problems, he was put on a high-flow oxygen tube when he first arrived in the PICU. They just switched him to a regular oxygen tube and hopefully soon he will be completely off the oxygen. He has had nothing but an IV with dextrose since 8 AM, so I really want to be able to feed him soon. Most likely he will stay in the PICU over night so they can monitor him, but we can go home some time tomorrow. On Monday, Ant will have an appointment with his pediatrician. In the mean time his dad and I will be discussing if we will take him to Boston Children’s Hospital, and we will be in contact with them to see what they can do for Ant that isn’t being done here at Tulane.
Please, every one, continue sending love our way. It is greatly appreciated.
If you would like to donate to help Baby Ant get the care he needs, we started a GoFundMe account for him. You can find it here at GoFundMe.com. Thank you all!
Today is day 3 of Ant’s re-admit. Yesterday we had a plan for labs and a liver biopsy to be done today. That plan got all fucked up and I’m trying really hard to be patient and not be a complete bitch to the hospital staff. After putting Ant through the stress of fasting for eight hours, the procedure got pushed back to tomorrow morning. His doctor reassured me that he was their priority for the morning, but its still very frustrating. Continue reading
1. Mistake yeast for milk residue.
2. Feel guilty when your son’s GI specialist points out that the white stuff is not milk residue.
3. Get a prescription for nystatin. Continue reading
There is so much I want to share with you, but for the past few weeks my life has revolved around sterilizing, breast pumping, cleaning shit and drying tears. So, it’s been hard to collect all my thoughts and feelings about my experience as a new mom. Every time I sit down to write this entry I’m reminded of all the horrible things I have felt and dealt with and it’s not easy to talk about. And then, of course, baby Ant starts crying. I type a few sentences and am called away. I love being a mom, but it makes writing hard. Here is my attempt at telling Ant’s story so far… Continue reading